Happy Effing V Day

I know this whole situation is of my creation but that knowledge doesn't make it suck any less.

I am watching all the girls at work getting their flowers and their promise rings and being all happy and excited about tonight.

I am sitting here thinking about the logistics of my move, and sad because I am hurting someone and longing to be with the one I really want to be with.

I am not going out tonight because I couldn't make everyone happy. Except now I am not happy.

-sigh- I just want this day to be over with.