Time Smoke-Free: 21 days, 12 hours, 21 minutes and 4 seconds


Is this still yourMed Plan? Yes No
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 215
Lifetime Saved: 1 day, 15 hours
Money Saved: $40.63

Three weeks! WooT!

Smoke Watch 2007

Time Smoke-Free: 4 days, 8 hours, 54 minutes
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 44
Lifetime Saved: 8 hours
Money Saved: $7.74

I start to think that the grumpiness is wearing off but it rears its ugly head at the most inopportune times. Loren slept on the couch last night, if that explains it without saying much.

In other news, our dog is out of control. I am at my wits end with Tyson. Every time we don't kennel him when we leave the house, he goes on a seek and destroy mission. He has eaten two pairs of my shoes (including my PERFECT red shoes that I adored), countless bags of trash, the cat box, and sunglasses galore...including Loren's BRAND NEW pair of $100 sunglasses. Loren's fault for leaving them within reach but WHY does Tyson have to chew so much! He is a year and a half old. He is not going through the puppy chewing stage, he is just destructive.

I am going to look into obedience schools. Something has to be done!

Smoke Watch 2007

Time Smoke-Free: 3 days, 7 hours, 26 minutes and 58 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 33
Lifetime Saved: 6 hours
Money Saved: $5.80

What are we going to do with my $5.80? Party at my place!

Things kind of went downhill last night. I didn't smoke but I sure as hell wanted to. Let me sum up my day:

Found out in the morning that my mom had to go in for emergency surgery. She's fine, thank god, but I was still scared and stressed out about it.

Dog tore the house up while we were at work, so I had THAT to deal with when I came home.

Loren caught a mouse in the dog food and thought it would be fun to feed it to our lizard. I am TOTALLY against sacrificing live animals in my house so I LOST IT. I left the house and when I came back we had a screaming match. He ended up letting the mouse go but couldn't understand why I was upset. "Lizards eat mice in the wild." That's fine with me but my living room is not the wild and if he thinks that I am going to sit there and watch the cute little furry mouse get chased around a cage where it has no way to escape, then he is SORELY mistaken.

Of course, I don't think the screaming match would have been as bad if I wasn't going through Hell Week of Nic Withdrawal.

But we made up and went to get dinner. :)

In other news, MY BIG SISTER IS COMING TODAY!! I am so excited! I haven't seen her since July. :) Hooray!

Smoke Watch 2007
Time Smoke-Free: 2 days, 11 hours, 29 minutes and 4 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 25
Lifetime Saved: 4 hours
Money Saved: $3.87

Yesterday was not such a good day. I had NO caffeine, NO nicotine, and I was NO fun! I have a sore throat. I don't know if that is from not smoking (because I heard that sometimes it makes you sick) or if it is from jumping in the 58 degree water on Monday with Jon-Jon and Loren as part of our unofficial Polar Bear Plunge. I was tired and grumpy and more tired and more grumpy as the day wore on.

Loren got to leave work early since their new computer system wasn't running properly. He was home when I got there so I just crawled on top of him on the couch and laid my head on his chest. He cradled me like a baby, wrapped his legs around mine, his arms around my back and I fell asleep like that, face down in his chest. He just kept stroking my hair and telling me he was proud of me. I felt so warm and protected -- completely surrounded by his love and support.

I can do this.

I walked for about thirty minutes yesterday. Nothing spectacular but it was something. I am trying to avoid the trap that I always fall into when I try to be healthy. I OBSESS. Every morsel of food, every bit of exercise. I tire of it quickly and fall off the wagon. I have to let go of my perfectionism.

So my positives for yesterday?

I didn't drink any soda.

I DID drink 8 glasses of water.

NO fast food.

I stopped eating when I was full.

I CHOSE to walk home rather than ride.

Good start....

I resolve to:

Quit smoking.

I hurriedly smoked my last cigarette so I could run in and get a spine melting kiss from Loren when the ball dropped. Loved the kiss, kind of regretted the rushing of the cigarette. Oh well. It's been 34 hours and I am fiending. I was totally a bitch to Loren last night and he just told me that he loves me and he is proud of me.

Be healthy.

Losing weight, not eating junk food, not drinking so much beer, exercising regularly -- these all fall under BE HEALTHY. I don't want to jump on the New Year's diet bandwagon. As this year progresses, I want to ask myself BEFORE I do something, "Is this healthy?" And if it is not, then I shouldn't do it.

Unless it's the occasional piece of chocolate. Because a girl needs her chocolate.

In other news, I am very excited because one of my big sisters is coming to visit on Thursday. She will be the first member of my family to meet Loren. He says he is not nervous but I don't believe him. I know that she will love him!